Heaven

The other day, Chloe was asking about our baby.  

Chloe: Mommy, is there a baby in your tummy?

Me: No, sweetheart.  The baby isn't there anymore.

Chloe: Why?

Me: He is in heaven now with God. (We discussed this in more detail a few days earlier.)

Chloe:  Okay.

A few moments pass.

Chloe: I'm going bye-bye.

Me:  Oh?  Where are you going?

Chloe: To heaven.

Me (pausing in my activity): Why? (knowing what was coming)

Chloe: To see the baby.

(My heart seems to stop)

Chloe:  Jake is coming with me.

Me (weakly):  Okay.

Chloe:  We're here!  Jake, you stay in the car.

(Jake gets out of his seat)

Chloe: Jake, you come with me.

Chloe (Walks across the kitchen, then comes running back to me):  Look Mommy!! I found the baby!!  Look, right here, I found the baby.  

Chloe is holding a bright orange ear-plug (this deserves some explanation, but that's another post).  She is cradling it in her hands, holding it close to her face and mine.  Her voice is gentle now.  I hug my little one, wanting to hug our baby too.

It is a moment I hope I never forget.