It Is Well

Dave and Jenn Dabb are having care group right now and I can hear them worshipping (we live in their basement).  They are singing "It is well with my Soul".  Today marks 2 weeks since our D & C.  I had a check up and the news is good.  I am healthy and have healed very well.  It was hard to sit in the waiting room where I am usually waiting to hear a rapid heartbeat or to see tiny fingers and toes.  Kevin held my hand and wiped my tears and washed me in the Word.

It is well with my soul.

After the appointment, Kevin and I had the opportunity to just sit and talk.  (Thank you, Jenn, for watching the kiddies.)  I was sharing some of my thoughts about our little ones who are already in heaven.  I have so many questions.  It is hard to bend my mind around the idea that they are really there.  They are home and I am not.  Again, my husband held my hand and wiped my tears and washed me in the Word.

It is well with my soul.

Kevin encouraged me to study heaven in order to inform my heart with truth rather than my own pictures of what might be.  What wonderful counsel my husband provides!  So, I intend to begin my study soon.  My prayer is that my longing for heaven will increase and that God will be glorified as I pursue him in his word.  Father, you are holding my hand and collecting my tears and washing me in your Word.

It is well with my soul!  

1 Peter 4: 12 & 13 - Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you.  But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.

1 Peter 4:19 - Therefore let those who suffer according to God's will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.

It is your will that I suffer and I will entrust my soul to you and seek to do good according to the strength and power you provide.

And I will rejoice for it is well with my soul!