Monday, February 16, 2009
18.5 weeks
Today we would have been 18.5 weeks pregnant. It is highly likely that we would have had our ultrasound to discover the sex of our baby. We always schedule our appointments on Mondays so that Kevin can be there. He comes to all of the appointments. I love it! He got to know Dr. Apgar just as well as I did and was intimately involved in the whole process from start to finish for all of our pregnancies. He heard their heart's beat each time I did. It is just one way that Kevin enters into pregnancy with me. He cannot - and would not :-) - fully understand what it is like to carry a baby inside your body, but he does everything he can to involve himself with me. I love it! He fully enters my joy when we first find out we are pregnant and he mourns with me when things go wrong. He is a rock. Not a rock that is without compassion or love for our unborn baby, but a rock that suffers with me and yet holds me steady. He is God's gift to me. Six weeks after we lost Baby Rogers, he still comforts me and does not lose patience. He joins with me in my pain. I love him dearly.
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Jami, you have been in my thoughts & on my heart of late. I'm so sorry for the loss you & Kevin have recently experienced. No matter when or how, loosing a child & the dreams they carry with them is always a heavy burden to bear. You may not feel it, but your honesty & gracious faith in the midst of death's shadow is shining Christ's light more brightly than you know. I will continue to pray daily for you & your sweet family: for peace, for comfort in your grief & for joy in the moments between.
ReplyDeleteMuch love from old friends,
Jordan & Patience
Pai, thanks so much for your kind words. It means a tremendous amount coming from you. I have been keeping up with you and your sweet husband via your blog. What a wonderful gift technology can be! I'm so happy that you are pregnant and everything seems to be going well so far. I am praying for a healthy, strong baby - and for grace and peace if that is not the case. I have been deeply encouraged by your faithful grieving and heart of joy in the midst of sorrow and loss. Your baby Isaac is far from forgotten by those of us who are not daily involved with you. We remember and pray. I wept with you then and I rejoice with you now!
ReplyDeleteLove, Jami